Constipation

blabbering:

mindfulness has become a very hailed topic in this transforming society - where consumerism and information overload is rampant. several years ago, i read "mindfulness in plain english" and it was very eye opening but i don't think i ever put it into practice. though i was mindful that i needed to be mindful. and i knew how to take an emotion, chew on it, then let it go. over the years, however, i've been learning that this process can and should be applied to other aspects of life (other than dealing with emotions which used to have such a strong control and influence over me).

one such area is in my struggle for productivity.

let's take "writer's block," for example. what is it?

it's when ideas can't find a way out. or ideas can't find a way in. or something in the neural pipeworks is broken and all that comes out is jumbled mess of god knows what. you end up paralyzed and frustrated and fixated on things that don't help you get "out" of the writer's block. something is stopping you from being creative or writing down something or being productive, in the way that you want to be. you either have to let new ideas in, fix the pipeworks (e.g. refine your writing skills), or open the clogged faucet somehow.

it's sad to think that despite all of the information we are consuming in this day and age - current events, ideas floating around, television, and so much media - there is such a lack of outflow from those consuming. i find this true of myself. i have yet to ask if others experience this as well.

in short, i could say that one of the main reasons i often find myself paralyzed in life is that i'm mentally constipated, not paralyzed... in my little fairytale land of analogies, this makes so much sense. there's so much to take in, so much to let go of, and so so much to digest and spit out.

sometimes i want to collect and absorb, and that's great. but other times i have to let things out.

but hopefully it's not explosive diarrhea....